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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Don't Let........


Don't Let someone become priority in ur life, when you're just an option in their life........
Today I’m very sad probably because it’s a big let down for me. I ’m so shocked that I cannot express it in words and neither feel the pain that is cuffing my heart every minute. ‘Where did I go wrong?’ This is the question I repeatedly ask myself. But there is no answer that comes back to me. I haven’t certainly expected such a treat from you. The only thing that I understand is that I’ve got hurt by you. This is something that I had never expected, at least from you my dear friend......

I just want someone to understand me, my condition, my suffering that you have caused me. The person whom I least expected would gift me anything such. Why did you play with my heart, my trust, my faith and my understanding? Don’t you feel for me that you hurt and bruise me time and again? Why??
After being together, today I’m left alone. A loner in spite of being surrounded by people, a loner with a lost heart, with broken faith and broken trust, wandering on mindless thoughts, a loner who has lost the objective to live and has no reason to die. I don’t even know if a person like you should be punished or should I bear this pain like I’ve borne all these years, your love, your failure and success, your fakeness, your truth!!!

I know I am to be blamed because time and again I’ve trusted you, tried to rectify you, trusted your lies knowing that it’s a mistake I’m committing, have supported you like a pillar. Throughout I’ve pulled you out of testing times.
But I couldn’t help because I trusted you,liked you like hell was that my biggest mistake----- as all the while I was trusting you, loving you, you were just pretending your love trust and friendship for me! Today you stab me all over, misunderstanding me in every thing I say, treating me as if I don’t exist for you, looking at me like I’ve doomed your life.
I haven’t expected anything from you neither physical support. But I thought that in mind we’re bonded together. Alas! That is the biggest lie I’ve been living with.
I don't have anyone to turn to. God I just trust you because I know are there and will always pull me out of the biggest crisis of my life. You can see all that I’m going through and can hear all those words that are being spoken to me. If anywhere I go wrong please let my conscience feel it and let me rectify it. Whenever anyone does any wrong to me give me the courage to fight back.
Please don’t make me weak, God!